Every song that I have is inspired by an authentic scenario.
So, yeah, this one was a romantic scenario that didn’t quite work out. But instead of focusing on all the reasons why me and that person might not be compatible, instead I just focused on all of my own faults and the possible faults of the new person that they started seeing.
It was just a reflection of those, sort of, self-invention moments you go through when you suffer a bit of rejection - whether it be from a break-up or from unreturned feelings and how we just feel that we have to reinvent ourselves to protect ourselves sometimes, I guess.
The lyric title for Hard As Hello when the actual lyric is “hard as hell” was a complete typo. Yeah, when I was saving… when I made the demo in Logic I just saved it and automatically wrote "hello" because - I don’t know - my hands were just, sort of, I don't know... muscle memory? I write "hello" more than I do "hell" perhaps?
Also, it… yeah, it was a total accident. But, actually, it made me think of sometimes sort of saying goodbye can be just as hard as, you know, approaching someone and telling them your feelings. Also, to be honest, my sister is like a really, like, devout Christin as well and she was just like “oh, it just feels a bit harsh to me as well…” she didn’t even like the word in the song.
Now I don’t have any spiritual affiliations but it did sort of… I liked that song title anyway... Hard As Hello and then it made me think of... just… it was cool the way it was. It felt like a sign.
My choice of lyric in the chorus… I think it just mainly came from just trying to find that courage to walk away. Like it’s literally is… it is what it says on the tin because it’s just so tempting to go back out of weakness, I guess, and keep feeling like someone’s feelings are going to change - if you change, for example. So it’s, basically, just me asking myself to have the determination to just walk away… finally.
I think that lyric had come up a lot through lots of, like, folk songs through the years and stuff. I don’t know, specifically, all the songs that have it in. But it just felt like quite an emotive phrase that was bubbling around in my head.
So, the girl I'm being really rude about in Hard As Hello is the person that I liked, was now seeing. So a new relationship was sparking and it was basically me wondering why... what qualities she had that I didn't.
So I was, basically, just picking holes in her personality, when I didn't really know her too well, just because I couldn't stomach the fact that I wasn't the person that they wanted to be with.
So, yeah, very mature.